It’s been a while since I’ve posted and so much has happened in the past 3 months….I have no idea where to begin or where to go from here.
Long story short….my son was arrested on January 13, 2011, transferred to county within 24 hours. He remained in county on a couple of misdemeanor charges and one state jail felony charge for possession. On March 23, 2011, two US Marshal’s picked him up and he is now in federal custody on a conspiracy possession charge. He is holding steadfast to his faith in God in this and all situations. He takes total and complete responsibility for where his lifestyle and associations have landed him. He seems to be resolved to this fate, he understands consequences. He told me a few days ago that he will get through this and that he’s just sorry that it took “this” for him to get that drugs are a dead end street every time.
I haven’t been this much of a total wreck in over 6 years, since he went to treatment for the first time and I didn’t think I would survive that. I’m in counseling, I’ve seen a psychiatrist for meds, I can’t seem to make it through a day without crying to the point of sobbing, I feel like there’s an elephant sitting on my chest….I can’t breathe, I can’t seem to focus, think, make sense…..I’m just lost . I’m terrified. I’m heartbroken. Right or wrong, I’m angry at the government for how these conspiracy charges work and the stiff sentencing that comes with them. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying my son has been a choir boy, I’m just referring to fair justice and I’m just not seeing it. Cases on the Federal level are so very different than on the State level. My son is looking at a 5 year federal prison sentence and I have no idea how to get through those 5 years.
I would just ask for prayers from this community for my son.
- Dallas/Ft. Worth, Texas, United States
- I'm mom to 3 beautiful children, wife to a wonderful man who is the love of my life and grandmother, "Nonna", to a beautiful grandson. Like too many others out there, I am the mother of an addict. I am still learning to deal with things in a healthy way and have a life inspite of the insanity that addiction produces. I am very blessed to have found this community of amazing people that share so much of themselves with us all through their blogs. You are all an inspiration to me. I share your struggles, your pain, your joys and all your hopes. I pray for the addicts still out there suffering and for the people that love them the most. My heart felt thanks to each & every one of you! May God's mercy and grace be with us all, Kristi