tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59984055460954335542012-02-16T02:18:29.265-06:00Just a mom trying to work my way through the storms of addiction with a son that I love... He is my heart...Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.comBlogger221100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-44005304228369585812011-09-20T09:55:00.001-05:002011-09-20T10:44:25.926-05:00

The BARBER Amendment is a bill to amend Title 18 U.S.C. Section 3624(b)(1) as follows: by striking the number "54" in the first sentence as it appears and inserting in lieu thereof the number "128"; and in the same sentence, by striking "prisoner's term of imprisonment" and inserting in lieu thereof "sentence imposed" . Note: The Barber Amendment has not been introduced. FedCURE is

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-70644367937219541122011-04-07T09:27:00.000-05:002011-04-07T09:27:04.003-05:00

It’s been a while since I’ve posted and so much has happened in the past 3 months….I have no idea where to begin or where to go from here. Long story short….my son was arrested on January 13, 2011, transferred to county within 24 hours. He remained in county on a couple of misdemeanor charges and one state jail felony charge for possession. On March 23, 2011, two US Marshal’s picked him up and

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-58394145167871056372011-02-03T22:46:00.000-06:002011-02-03T22:46:08.137-06:00

There has been so much going on and I just haven't had a chance to sit down and blog about it....wish I could say it's all been good stuff, but as the mom of an addict, it's not.  But I'm getting through it one day at a time.  Who knows maybe (hopefully) it will all work out for the best in the long run....I'm going to try to blog this weekend about my current saga....  God has certainly been

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-28421026491406171522010-12-23T22:30:00.001-06:002010-12-24T08:00:49.289-06:00

Life has, as usual, been crazy busy!! I am officially on vacation until the 4th...YAY!!  I need it desperately.  I plan to do a little blogging while being off next week, but for now I think I can safely say that all has been pretty good and quite....my daughter is in counseling and loving it, Jacob has been back with his girlfriend and my grandson since late October...they seem to be doing fine

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-42527707950895669172010-11-07T07:43:00.001-06:002010-11-07T08:48:30.956-06:00

Wow, so where to begin so that this doesn’t turn into a dissertation! Okay, long story, short….turns out that most of what I had heard about my son from my last post was false. He’s actually doing pretty good and I’ve seen a lot of progress in his behavior and choices. He came to me and asked for help for the first time in his life. He said he needed to be with family and wanted help before he

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-17551346996744660772010-10-14T11:30:00.002-05:002010-10-14T11:30:50.586-05:00

I can’t think, I can’t focus, I can’t concentrate on anything but him and will he live to see tomorrow….I can’t breathe.  He’s back out, using.  What the hell drives his demons? As much as I understand addiction, I will still never fully get it. He doesn’t know that I know…yet. Won’t really matter or make any difference when he knows, he’ll just deny it and fabricate some well spun story which he

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-47871163647021734112010-10-04T15:53:00.000-05:002010-10-04T15:53:37.770-05:00

This past weekend was my ex-husband and the father of my children’s 50th birthday. My daughter was at her dad’s for the weekend and C and my grandbaby were going over on Saturday for a cookout to celebrate the ex’s birthday. Jake and C have been apart for a couple of weeks now. In the past whenever they have split up, Jake would take off and commence the beginning of his life spiraling out of

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-78070221302697084552010-09-25T09:10:00.000-05:002010-09-25T09:10:02.136-05:00

 Well Jacob finally surfaced and not in jail as I was so sure he was. When I got him on the phone he was going off about how he didn't want to talk about C and all that drama, how he's sick of it, how he's 20 years old, how he's a grown man and doesn't have to check in daily and why does everyone freak out just because he doesn't answer a call or a text.  I have failed to mention that he has,

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-19055479123844148722010-09-24T14:27:00.000-05:002010-09-24T14:27:46.709-05:00

Appears the ride has begun once again…just a few weeks shy of making it 9 months clean (this time). He is currently MIA and I suspect he is in jail somewhere. His phone is off and appears to have been off since sometime after 3 yesterday afternoon. I’ve checked all the obvious jails around here and he’s not there, or he just hasn’t hit their online system yet. I hate this with a passion so great

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-19431214551873861482010-09-17T15:48:00.000-05:002010-09-17T15:48:08.997-05:00

I want to preface this post with how last night ended. I received a call from C, which I really debated about answering. She was upset and crying, wanting to know if I had spoken to Jacob. I told her that I hadn’t and she went on to tell me that she was afraid that he was out doing things he’s not supposed to be doing and that they had been fighting over text but he refused to speak with her

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-22081103011924328992010-09-17T10:56:00.000-05:002010-09-17T10:56:00.694-05:00

Well, Jake, C and the baby have been in their new apartment a little more than a week and so it begins…. Just as I feared, it appears that impending disaster is looming large yet again…heavy sigh….. They had (yet another) fight, night before last, Jake got out of the car and took off walking. He hasn’t come back yet…. This is the first time he’s done this in nearly 9 months, so here we go again!

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-9025330087138028042010-09-08T16:11:00.000-05:002010-09-08T16:11:16.867-05:00

Just wanted to to take a few minutes and post something to let you all know that I am still out here! It’s been so busy the last couple of months that I'm not sure sometimes if I'm coming or going, but I still make time to read all of your blogs and comment when and where I can. Also, I finally got my personal laptop fixed (YAY!) Turns out it was the video card which meant a new mother board and

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-18095239171541218302010-07-22T16:26:00.001-05:002010-07-27T09:55:00.127-05:00

You know how sometimes someone says something that for whatever reason just makes a great impression on you? It’s usually some simple truth that for some reason just really speaks to you? About a year ago my husband said two things that for whatever reason were profound for me. One was a question, one was a statement. We were having a conversation about Jacob, although I couldn’t tell you now

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-57528090045054262742010-07-15T16:17:00.000-05:002010-07-15T16:17:59.159-05:00

This is a website I stumbled onto and as it turned out I couldn't quit reading!!  The author of this website is an addict who has been clean, sober and in recovery for over 8 years.  I think there is really good information here....if you have time, look it over. http://www.spiritualriver.com/

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-46034175081935682802010-07-11T07:13:00.001-05:002010-07-11T07:29:58.518-05:00

Yesterday was Jacob’s birthday. He turned 20 years old officially as of 3:25 yesterday morning. Today he is clean and has been for about 6 ½ months now. Today he is working. Today he is father to his beautiful 7 month old son. Today he is doing pretty well. As I do from time to time, I’ve been thinking back over the past 20 years….where did all that time go? As I do every birthday, I reflect on

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-45935689562094750062010-06-08T10:51:00.002-05:002010-06-08T12:30:38.896-05:00

Two summers ago, my brother, my niece and myself, had stopped at a Wal-Mart in South Texas on our way to visit Jake during his 8 month stay at the ranch. As we were walking through the parking lot on our way back to the car we were approached by a young man selling candy to raise money for a ministry he was part of, Victory Life Ministries. He handed us a pamphlet entitled “Outcry in the Barrio,”

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-61555735471447146512010-06-04T16:22:00.001-05:002010-06-04T16:24:36.698-05:00

A little something light hearted for a beautiful Friday afternoon!!  Today I am happy to have a funny little story to tell….which is nice for a change!! I sent this picture of Eli, our 7 month old, to some friends & family today. Included in the email were my son Jake and his girlfriend, Cathy…. Just minutes later Jake send me an email reply to the picture above. Here was his reply: “Eli is

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-88973555936986884922010-06-02T13:14:00.000-05:002010-06-02T13:14:52.881-05:00

I had a great Memorial weekend!  Diane, my best friend of 30 years came up from the Austin area along with her husband and son (who is also my God son).  Our niece (mine and hers) graduated from high school Friday night.  We all went to the graduation and then to dinner and had a really nice time together.  Diane and I don’t get to see each other as often as we used to, so I really look forward

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-6284669151222616112010-06-02T11:35:00.002-05:002010-06-02T16:37:02.500-05:00

Like many of you out there, I looked into numerous residential treatment programs searching for that one place that spoke to me, that was perfect for Jacob; that would make all the difference.  I searched high and low, off and on for months.  There had been times that I’d looked into treatment programs and then things would seem to calm down and I’d put it off a little longer (thinking everything

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-78669217937821173732010-05-27T21:31:00.000-05:002010-05-27T21:31:13.473-05:00

There's a mother new to this struggle that I believe could really use everyone's support. Please visit her blog and let her know she isn't walking this road alone. Her bog is at: http://motherofabeautifulboy.blogspot.com/ thank you and God bless you all, kristi

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-10323381856167893272010-05-18T14:34:00.000-05:002010-05-18T14:34:39.376-05:00

As I mentioned in part 1, when Jake went into treatment for the first time, I literally fell apart at the seams, to say I was a total and complete wreck would be an understatement. I didn’t know what to do, how to do it and I was terrified!! My doctor took me off work for 3 months and put me on anti-depressants. I remember sitting in group counseling at this treatment facility, with other

Kristihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05641741958327206917noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5998405546095433554.post-3567813106781338792010-05-15T11:48:00.000-05:002010-05-15T14:23:18.501-05:00

So, where to begin…. This blog is something I’ve been meaning to start for quite a while now but, beginning seemed to be the hardest part. My journey began a little over 5 years ago, yet seems like decades ago. I’m Kristi; I’m the adult child of an alcoholic. I’m wife to a wonderful man that it took me three shots to finally get right. I’m mom to 3 wonderful children: mine & my husband’s only

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